This weekend was balm to my soul.
Yes. I was in my PJ's. No, I didn't leave the house. Yes, it was perfect.
The flu latched onto my husband like super magnet this week. PTL he is on the mend! But this weekend, everything needed to be washed and "Lysoled" for the 8th time.
I chose to stay home and take care of household needs and rest. Probably not in the way you think.
Each year, I watch a women's conference in Austin, TX. IF Gathering. And this year, I realized why it didn't work out to be watching it with friends and family. The Lord needed to speak to me. Just me. The girl with the Diana Ross hair and polka dot pajama pants.
The internet, social media, groups, webinars, full time jobs, responsibilities, are all good things. But in moderation. I have been overdoing it.
Trying to push harder, write more, photograph more, meal prep, Instagram, lose weight, etc. And I was just giving everyone around me my leftovers. It's not fair.
The God who Speaks to Me, pressed in this weekend, asking me to simplify and dial it back.
I will still be doing all of those things, just in moderation. I need to be looking more people in the eyes. I shouldn't be feeling this overwhelmed. It was all my own fault.
I serve a God who saves me from myself. He knows that I am a doer, a pleaser, and loves me anyway. He just wanted some quiet to tell me something.
He reminded me of my MaMaw. She was the perfecter of simple. She loved on people, simply. She cared for her children and grandchildren, simply. She served, simply. She left a resounding legacy, simply. And I have always wanted to be just like her.
I just want to encourage you. As this week begins, the emails, the pressure, the constant feeling of not being enough are already setting in. Let me tell you something. You don't have to be enough. You just have to be present. And I am preaching to the choir on this one. Because there is a God who can handle all the rest.
And He loves our precious little striving hearts so much, that He wants to take that burden away. Even with Pinterest, Instagram, and Facebook, I am going to try to start giving it over to Him.
And dialing it back a little.
Will you hold me accountable?
If you feel like you are on this constant gerbil wheel of life, there is hope. And I am so thankful that I serve a God who is closer than my own skin.
Love and Laughter,