This time of year seems to make me restless.
It's not spring, it's not winter.
The lists are growing and the calendar slots are becoming scarce.
Everyone else has their stuff together. Or so it seems.
Stress is building and relationships are becoming fly by night instead of intentional.
And I'm tired. The kind of tired you don't sleep off.
I have figured out why. Only because I asked the One person who knows me better than I know myself.
Over a pile of dirty dishes and dog hair rolling like tumbleweed on my floors, I heard it.
"Shelby, the reason you are working so hard and feeling so empty is because you are seeking everyone else's approval. Yet, forgetting about mine."
What????? I hustle to help people not get them to like me. I burn the midnight oil to make things happen, not to win popularity. Right?
What I am doing is good. Why I am doing it is leaving me dry.
In the middle of feeling like even more of a failure, I heard something else.
"You are loved"
"You are chosen and adopted"
"You are purchased by a Perfect Savior"
"You are made to keep showing up but not for others, for Me."
"I know the desires of your heart and have already walked in them."
"You are enough. Because I say you are."
I don't know if you have been feeling alone or ready to throw in the towel. But if you have take courage by the horns and rest in the satisfying knowledge that the One who truly matters, thinks you are AMAZING!
Go live your dream. Show people who He created you to be. Throw out the pressure to perform with the bath water.
Follow the eyes of He who is ravished by your beauty and talent. Because He thought it up!
And for the love, DON'T QUIT!!!!!!!
Love and Laughter,