I like making decisions for myself. I am indecisive, but I like the ultimate choice to be made by me.
Whether it is my sweet husband giving me a list of restaurants, waiting in awkward silence as I calculate the pros and cons, or choosing painfully what to wear for the next day. I like to be in charge of somethings.
My husband and I are finding out that nothing is in our control in foster care and adoption. Every part of our lives are to be read, evaluated, and decided on by another person.
Like I have said before, patience is not a virtue of which I am an example. Waiting on countless papers to be read and many people to decide on our fitness to parent is heavy. And scary.
Yet, Jesus writes the sweetest stories. He is preparing our hearts for the last step of our home study this weekend. Something that has been eerily looming over us.
We, like most new parents, just don't want to mess this up. We know our weakness, yet Jesus' power is made PERFECT in us. That is almost more than my little heart can handle.
I have worried about each step of this process, in an unnecessary fashion, I might add. Yet God, in all of His goodness, gifted me with a 20 minute phone call with our investigator who couldn't be more gracious. She was calming, encouraging, and exactly what I prayed for. And she hasn't even met us yet!
She has the job of writing our home study and interviewing us. I ask that you pray for us this week. As we prepare our home, our minds, and our hearts for this last step. I ask that you pray for our investigator as she makes decisions on our behalf. And pray for all the people who have touched any papers with our names on it. Their jobs are so hard and their appreciation so thin.
We hope to soon give you great news that will bring our family to a new and beautiful place.
Love and Laughter,